Goodbye 2009

Goodbye 2009...

Many things happened this year...

College lifes...
Relationships...
Teen's life...

Lots of good's and bad's too...

Everything's gone...
Everything's over...

Goodbye 2009...

Start training~

Whee....

My training begins!
Hmmm... Actually the studio, ain't too big and ain't too small, but the office is FREEZING!!
Currently I'm in charge in 988's Programming Department (I heard that I'm the first batch to join the team since they're not vacant new "intrants" for the past few years)~ I'm LUCKY!!

This is the forth day of my training period. Seriously nothing special, currently our supervisor is arranging some works for us to do, I think will be next year~ (after today is year 2010. LOL!)

Now, what I can do is, standby for orders! Ha ha!

It's gonna start my new life...

Goodbye Penang... for three months... from now...

I arrived KL now safely. No worries, my friends! I'm gonna miss you all!
I'm gonna miss Penang foods, my Penang home, my family, my puppies, my coursemates, my club "kaki"s, my Penang life...

KL ain't familiar to me although that's the place I was so tempting to go to, but, I ain't feel excited when I'm here, now...

Sometimes I think that, am I making the right decisions? I chose to sacrifice my feelings towards you and concentrate on my studies and my future. And at the same time, I accepted the other one. Seriously, he's nice, really nice; and I like him a lot. But I knew that he's still bare in mind that he might just be "the spare one" for me. I wanna tell you that: You're occupied parts of my heart. I'm really glad that you're enjoying your new life now, and I promised that I'll never intrude your life, I love you, I just want you to be happy... That's all what I wish...

ISK! Why am I keep thinking of you?!

Babe, I know that how much you love me now, and I'm doing the same thing to you. I'm giving you and myself a chance. I don't care how far the distance is, how impossible it is, I won't give up, cause I know you're trying your very best to make me happy... Thank you, babe... I'll be right here waiting for you...

This is my first night in KL, it's weird, really weird... Although I've lots of friends staying here, but none of them are willing to call me out. I knew the reason: I'm here for my college industrial training, not for fun! Looks like I'm gonna live and explore it myself. What I'm doing now is all for my future, my brighter life. Is the way of life that I really want?

... My heart is not feeling right thesedays. Seems to have some bad feelings, of dunno what...

I don't dare to face my life for this upcoming three months... I'm not sure what I'm gonna be...
Well, that's my new life! A new life of mine without directions..

... And now, I'm signing off with an unstable minds and thoughts, I'm headache...

Finally...exam's OVER! But...

Whee.... Finally, exam's over!!

But, unfortunately, I'm not feeling excited at all, I don't have the feeling that tell me my stress is released. Why? Maybe I'm over-exhausted and tentioned of it! And it's caused my monthly's visitor is late to me... Where're you? I'm waiting for you, please do come! I aint do wrong things for the past few weeks~ T.T

Well, it's time to go home, really... Actually I'm totally understand my mom's thoughts, just I'm still can't get used to listen her keep bla-bla-bla-ing in front of my ears~ hehe... Mom, actually I'm really miss you very much! you can't imagine how happy I was when you and sister find me last Sunday~ But I guess, I'll choose to keep it inside my heart...

Lastly... A simple and normal little-Penangite-girl is gonna leave her hometown and go to KL for industrial training ALONE. Seriously I've no idea what should I do and I can't imagine how will it be once I'm there... Hmm... Everything will be okay there right?

Farewell parties, gatherings from my different range of friends are dirtying my last week's schedule before I leave... I'm gonna miss you guys!

*smoochies*

So happy I could DIE!

First, I wanna introduce this latest hitz you guys...
Think yourself, are you happy if you're able to die?

So Happy I Could Die
performed by Lady Gaga
Album: The Fame Monster

Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Ye-ha, Ye-ha
Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Aha-aha

Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Ye-ha, Ye-ha
Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Aha-aha

I love that lavender blonde
The way she moves
The way she walks
I touch myself can’t get enough
And in the silence of the night
Through all the tears
And all the lies
I touch myself and it’s alright

Just give in
Don’t give up baby
Open up your heart and your mind to me
Just know when
That glass is empty
That the world is gonna bend, yeah

Happy in the club with a bottle of red wine
Stars in our eyes ‘cuz we’re having a good time
Eh-eh, Eh-eh
So happy I could die

Be your best friend
Yeah I’ll love you forever
Up in the clouds
We’ll be higher than ever
Eh-eh, Eh-eh
So happy I could die
And it’s alright

Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Ye-ha, Ye-ha
Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Aha-aha

Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Ye-ha, Ye-ha
Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Aha-aha

I am as vain as I allow
I do my hair
I gloss my eyes
I touch myself all through the night
And when something fall out of place
I take my time
I put it back
I touch myself
Till I’m on track

Just give in
Don’t give up baby
Open up your heart and your mind to me

Just know when
That glass is empty
That the world is gonna bend, Yeah

Happy in the club with a bottle of red wine
Stars in our eyes ‘cuz we’re having a good time
Eh-eh, Eh-eh
So happy I could die

Be your best friend
Yeah I’ll love you forever
Up in the clouds
We’ll be higher than ever
Eh-eh, Eh-eh
So happy I could die
And it’s alright

So happy I could die
And it’s alright

So happy I could die
And it’s alright

Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Ye-ha, Ye-ha
Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Aha-aha

Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Ye-ha, Ye-ha
Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Aha-aha

Happy in the club with a bottle of red wine
Stars in our eyes ‘cuz we’re having a good time
Eh-eh, Eh-eh
So happy I could die

Be your best friend
Yeah I’ll love you forever
Up in the clouds
We’ll be higher than ever
Eh-eh, Eh-eh
So happy I could die
And it’s alright

Exam Y2S2

I've never been so nervous before
I'm terrifying about this exam
Those subjects...
are really drivin' me CRAZY!

-Advanced TV Productions
-Film Aethestic & Critism
-Mass Media Law & Policy in Malaysia
-Iintroductions to International Politics

That's CRAZY! INSANE!

I'm seriously not feelin' well
Headache! Moody! Exhausted!
I still have to memorise so much~
Argh!!!!

Anyway, I'll try my best to overcome it~
I promise...
May God bless me!!

I wanna maintain my score!
I'm one of the top students before,
studied in a top secondary school before!
I wanna maintain my grades!

Keep on moving!
Good Luck Guys~

"Whatcha Say"

Whatcha Say
performed by Jason Derulo

Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is

I was so wrong for so long
Only tryin' to please myself (myself)
Girl, I was caught up in her lust
When I don't really want no one else

So, no I know I should of treated you better
But me and you were meant to last forever
So let me in (let me in) give me another chance (another chance)
To really be your man

Cause when the roof cave in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So tell me girl

Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say

How, could I live with myself
Knowing that I let our love go (love go)
And ooh, when I do with one chance
I just gotta let you know

I know what I did wasn't clever
But me and you we're meant to be together
So let me in (let me in) give me another chance (another chance)
To really be your man

Cause when the roof cave in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So tell me girl

Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say

Girl, tell me whatcha said (said)
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I really need you in my life
Cuz things ain't right, girl
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I really need you in my life
Cuz things ain't right

Cause when the roof cave in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So baby watcha say!


Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say

"Automatic"

Automatic
performed by Tokio Hotel

Automatic
Automatic

You're automatic,
And your heart's like an engine
I die with every beat
You're automatic,
And your voice is electric
Why do I still believe?

It's automatic
Every word in your letter
A lie that makes me bleed
It's automatic
When you say things will get better
But they never...

There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
Why do I keep loving you

It's automatic,
Counting cars on a crossroad
They come and go like you
It's automatic,
Watching faces I don't know
Erase the face of you

It's automatic
Systematic
So traumatic
You're automatic

There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
Why do I keep loving you

Automatic
Automatic
Automatic
Automatic

Each step you make
Each breath you take
Your heart. Your soul.
Remote-controlled
This life is so sick
You're automatic to me


(There's no real love in you)
(There's no real love in you)
There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
(There's no real love in you)
There's no real love in you
Why do I keep loving you?

Automatic
(There's no real)
Automatic
(Love in you)
Automatic
(Why do I)
Automatic
(Keep loving you?)
Automatic...