♥ what's tellin' ya?

Merry Christmas!

2011-12-24T13:34:00.002+08:00

I wish everyone Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! Hope you guys spend these two fabulous day with your loved ones...

Ho! Ho! Ho! Here comes my Snoopy...

Don't miss out d jolly Merry Guinness Christmas party at Market Hall, Bukit Bintang this festive season! #MerryGuinness

2011-12-12T12:53:00.000+08:00

Don't miss out d jolly Merry Guinness Christmas party at Market Hall, Bukit Bintang this festive season! #MerryGuinness

Hennessy Artistry Finalé...

2011-11-13T14:00:00.001+08:00

...... Updating soon .......

Somehow, I wish you were here.

2011-09-26T01:46:00.005+08:00

Somehow, I wish you were here for me. The one I care, the one I love, but where've you been? Do you feel that?

Damn! What I'd do to have you here?

Wish You Were Here - Avril Lavigne

I can be tough

I can be strong

But with you, it's not like that at all

There's a girl
who gives a shit
behind this wall
You've just walked through it

And I remember all those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here.
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
near, near, near
I wish you were here.

I love the way you are
It's who I am, don't have to try hard
We always say, say like it is
And the truth is that I really miss

All those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here.
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

[Chorus:]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
near, near, near
I wish you were here.

[Bridge:]
No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go

(let go let go let go let go)

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go

(let go let go let go let go let go let go let go)

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
here, here, here
I wish you were here (I wish you were)
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
near, near, near
I wish you were here.

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
near, near, near
I wish you were here.

Am I Invisible?

2011-09-26T01:39:00.004+08:00

Recently, I feel I'm invisible among my friends, even my besties... Why?
Seriously I hate myself being a tool or some other useful stuff for my friend, or an extra person to share some cost, or a human navigation system to lead you everywhere, or myself as a final option for hangouts...
My sincerity, is that so worthless?

This song writes out everything from my heart...

Invisible - Skylar Grey

[Verse 1]
I take these pills to make me thin
I dye my hair, and cut my skin
I try everything, to make them see me
But all they see, is someone that's not me

[Chorus]
Even when I'm walking on a wire
Even when I set myself on fire
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible
Everyday I try to look my best
Even though inside I'm such a mess
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible

[Verse 2]
Here inside, my quiet hell
You cannot hear, my cries for help
I try everything, to make them see me
But every one, sees what I can't be

[Chorus]
Even when I'm walking on a wire
Even when I set myself on fire
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible
Everyday I try to look my best
Even though inside I'm such a mess
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible

[Bridge]
Sometimes when I'm alone
I pretend that I'm a queen
It's almost believable

[Chorus]
Even when I'm walking on a wire
Even when I set myself on fire
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible
Everyday I try to look my best
Even though inside I'm such a mess
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible

Arthur's Day 2011!!

2011-09-24T18:50:00.003+08:00

Wow! Such a long time I've never been to a concert since Maroon 5 live in KL couple months ago.

I missed out this party last year at Sunway Lagoon, and finally I can make it this year!!
Malaysia has been chosen as the venue for Arthur's Day 2011 Closing Celebration after perty over 40 countries around the world!

I owned 2 exclusive passes and I brought along with my new concert "kaki".

What I wore last night? BLACK top, blue navy jeans, BLACK Nike's sport shoes, and my new BLACK specs!

We were kinda late there, it's about 9pm. Jam! Jam! Jam!! Whoops! So sorry that I couldn't tell you what's happening be4 we reach there.

20k of people were there and that's really insane, and you cant imagine when 20k of them were wearing BLACK!

Luckily we're still able to catch up Soler's performance on the screen while enjoying Guinness Stout with great deals in the drinking area (Seriously that's my first time drinking it, I don't really like that xD).

(source: xiangcool.com)

(source: Guinness Malaysia Facebook Page)

JJ & Ean from hitz.fm and Serena were the emcee for the night, how cute! Up next, Hitz.fm's DJ Skeletor and Moots spinning on the stage! "Mr. Saxobeat", "Party Rock Anthem", "Give Me Everything (Tonight)"... He showed his great DJ skills and here comes the first peak of the night, Mizz Nina's in the house, appeared in front of the stage with her glitter gold + black Hip-Hop outfit, sing and dance along the show! "Take Over", "What You Waiting For ( + DJ Goldfish remix)", some other album hits, and WOW! She danced well! Hawt!!

Kartel's act was totally turned me down and they dragged lots of time before Taio Cruz showed up. I think I'm not the only one who said that. I don't wanna talk about it, BOO!

I guess the organiser felt our pain.. DJ Skeletor and emcees were back to us! They tried really, really hard to entertain us and hit some music to bring us back... and FINALLY!! He's here!!

(source: Guinness Malaysia Facebook Page)

TAIO CRUZ!

He sang "She's Like a Star", "Come On Girl", and "I Just Wanna Know" from his first album "Departure". Of course, here's our favourite hits! "Break Your Heart" and other collaborating hits like "Dirty Pictures ft. Ke$ha", "Higher ft. Kylie Minogue & Travie McCoy", and my very, very-owned favourite song "Little Bad Girl ft. Ludacris, produced by David Guetta", and lastly he introduced his latest hits for his upcoming album, which will be released end of this year "Troublemaker"!

Whoooaa.. wait! That's not enough! "We want MORE! We want MORE! We want MORE!..." He's back on stage by singing "Dynamite" vocal! He's awesome!! All of us were damn HIGH!!

Lastly, a 5 minutes fireworks ended the whole party! TO ARTHUR!!
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Well, I saw lot's of posts and complaining about parking stuff, cellphone no signal, how bad's the venue, bla bla bla.. Duh! Just stop blaming on the organiser!
We're stucked in the parking lot for nearly 2 hours to get out from there, but it's worth! That's part of the concert life!! 20k of people were there, more than 5k vehicles were there, what do you expect!
One more thing, turf club are supposed to have bad device signal, all of us know that.

Thank you Guinness Malaysia for giving us the extraordinary Arthur's Day @ Speed City KL!!

Another portraits...

2011-09-20T23:06:00.001+08:00

The only thing I wanna say is "I LOVE MY DRESS SO MUCH!!"

Photographer: Aaron Foo
Dress: Vanity Boutique
Make-up: Myself

that's me!

it's just like a flower..

Izumi Facial Promo!

2011-09-19T13:19:00.001+08:00

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Glee is BACK!

2011-09-19T02:46:00.001+08:00

Glee is back! Brand new season, premieres on 20th September 2011 in US.

Well, you might figured out that the last episode of Glee Season 2 everyone was planning and finding their future, especially Rachel (Lea Michelle) and Kurt (Chris Colfer) want to follow their dreams in New York. Or maybe, you might think that Glee Season 3 is all about their graduation year, just like HSM 3.

"Uh, uh, I've learnt my lesson, and I won't do that again," said Ryan Murphy, the director of Glee.

Besides, new characters will be showing up in this season too! Meet Mike Chang's parents, Emma's parents, and more!

Looking for it? Stay tuned and don't miss out the fabulous show!

For more info, click here to find out more. And here's the video.. Check this out ^^

...and this

Gleek!

Black is Back with Arthur's Day 2011

2011-09-18T17:30:00.000+08:00

To Arthur!

Seriously, I'm really not a big fan of Guinness Stout (I don't like the taste xD), but this is not a big deal. The greatest part of this Arthur's Day 2011 is -

"Higher, higher, higher of the ground.."

"I'm only gonna break, break your, break, break you heart..."

"Go! Little bad girl, little bad girl..."

Taio Cruz first time LIVE in Malaysia!

OMFG! Come and join our worldwide international greatest celebration this coming Friday, 6pm onward at Speed City KL, Selangor Turf Club!

Wait, wait, wait... Not only this.

Arthur's Day supports local music as well! 6 talented local music acts will vie for this fabulous opportunity to perform on the global stage with Taio Cruz

- Prema Yin

- NakedBreed

- Rosevelt

- Dragon Red

- Jin Hackman (featuring CSBTEA)

- James Baum

Malaysia's Top 2 favourites will perform at Arthur's Day 2011, vote your favourite local acts now, because YOU are the one will decice whether they'll be there or not!

Click here to vote now! Guinness Malaysia Facebook Page

Let me remind you once again, here's the details:

Date: 23rd September 2011 (Friday)

Time: 6pm onwards

Venue: Speed City KL @ Selangor Turf Club

What to wear? Be Mysterious BLACK

Special thanks to Nuffnang and Guinness Malaysia for this awesome invites!

Obstacles...

2011-09-03T00:53:00.000+08:00

I'm lost...

Tons of problems keep throwing on me until I'm so hard to breathe.
Tons of problems turned my life upside down.

School termination problems,
Late salary payment,
Alimony delayed,
Group assignments issue,
Working stress...
..... and more.....

I've lost my passion on my studies
I've lost my passion on my life
I've totally lost myself..

But I don't feel like GTD...
.... cool huh?

Ashley-Jesse's here!

2011-07-04T00:41:00.001+08:00

It's July?

2011-07-04T00:35:00.000+08:00

Whoa... that's fast. I spent half year in Kay-Elle!

I can't believe my eyes, time flies fast, damn fast.

I was wondering what I've done for the past six months:
First trimester in UTAR? Working as a liquor promoter in the club (again?!)? Craving for more and more money and practical studies? My Broadcasting stuff? I wish someone could answer for me.

Someone says that "Study life's good, especially in Uni, but don't do it in a "full time mode", enjoy it!" That's what I want. Two-and-a-half-year to go, appreciate that!

Pretending...

2011-05-26T14:56:00.001+08:00

Glee – Pretending (Original Song) Lyrics

Click here to listen it

face to face and heart to heart

we’re so close, yet so far apart

i close my eyes i look away

that’s just because i’m not okay

but i hold on, i stay strong

wondering if we still belong

will we ever say the words we’re feeling

reach down underneath and tear down all the walls

will we ever have a happy ending

or will we forever only be pretending

will we a-a-a-always a-a-a-always a-a-a-always be pretending

how long do i fantasize

make believe that it’s still alive

imagine that i am good enough

and we can choose the ones we love

but i hold on, i stay strong

wondering if we still belong

will we ever say the words we’re feeling

reach down underneath and tear down all the walls

will we ever have a happy ending

or will we forever only be pretending

will we a-a-a-always a-a-a-always a-a-a-always be

keeping secrets safe

every move we make

seems like no one’s letting go

and it’s such a shame

cause if you feel the same

how am i supposed to know

will we ever say the words we’re feeling

reach down underneath and tear down all the walls

will we ever have a happy ending

or will we forever only be pretending

will we a-a-a-always a-a-a-always a-a-a-always be (pretending)

will we a-a-a-always a-a-a-always a-a-a-always be pretending

Fall for Glee!!

2011-05-26T14:51:00.000+08:00

Finally, I've completed Glee Season 2, episode 22 "New York"!. Although the ending's not pretty well (which means The New Directions not shortlisted to the Top 10's National Show Choir Championship, but at least they ranked #12) ^^ , But I'll keep stay tuned for the Glee Season 3, which premieres on Fall 2011 - Spring 2012!

I've done right.

2011-03-04T13:41:00.001+08:00

"Are we doing the right thing?" That's the point.
Whatever you've done to me, although it's hurt, but I believe time heals, just it takes me more than others.

You know what? I hated myself so so so so much for being the third person in your life, not once, but twice. Ask yourself: "What am I meant to you actually? You need me for what?" I'm not yours, you're not mine. I can't simply make it out, just because of you. You're not the random guy, you're my ex-b. I should protect myself instead, at the same time, I'm trying to protect you for not being ruined your relationship again, I'm not as great as you think.

Lotsa things in my mind, I can't say it out... But I know what I've done will be the best for you and me.

"Although you wanna go nuts, but please don't play with fire." Okay?
btw, I love you.

I'm QUIT!

2011-02-27T01:24:00.000+08:00

Refused to talk about you and her?
You needed me "right now"?
No plan for your birthday? No off day?

Can you just stop bullshitting in front of me?!

I'm QUIT.

Something you should know...

2011-02-25T15:25:00.000+08:00

I might take it personally cause I'm not sure it's for me or not, but I think it is.

I knew what we did that night. It was good for giving me the feel that I used to have it before, but it didn't blow my mind like first time again.

I'm not bounded for you, cause I'm still clearly remembered what you've told me in previous, and I'm not gonna pretend that you're mine, ever. I know it's not gonna happen again. You're not belong to me, forever.

It's true that no one's able to replace the hole that you've made in my heart apparently. I've tried my best to get some replacements so that I'm able to forget you, but I failed again and again.
I've decided to change myself, not to take it serious anymore, not to take any responsibility anymore, just P.F.F.
I wanna make myself clear. I won't ever let myself for being hurt anymore.

It's over, I'd never expect that you'll talk to me again, but I'm glad. I'm still hoping that you're good with her once you've committed to her. I'm just nothing in your heart, nothing...

We're still friends...

It's 2011...

2011-01-02T23:27:00.000+08:00

Finally, 2010 is over...

Kinda mess during 2010.
I heard lots of people surrounding me were saying that the year before we turn 21 is the hardest time ever.
True.
The year before I really become the REAL adult, the final year to be a teen.

Ups and downs, bitter and sweet, I gained lots of new experiences...
... being an intern in 988 radio station
... participated as Red.fm's radio announcer's audition
... being a club's PR
... a coffee maker at The Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf
... a direct salesman
... AND a Diploma holder of Broadcasting course

hmmm... sounds great huh? I'm really surprised that I can face so many situations by myself. I guess it makes me getting tougher and tougher...

Well, it's 2011 now. Smile.

Back to December - Taylor Swift

2010-12-23T20:46:00.002+08:00

Back to December - Taylor Swift

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life, tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier then ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why

'Cause the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to december all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to december, turn around and make it all right and
I go back to december all the time

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn't call
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side,
Realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to december all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to december, turn around and change my own mind and
I go back to december all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night,
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

But this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to december
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine and
I go back to december, turn around and make it alright and
I go back to december, turn around and change my own mind and
I go back to december all the time

All the time

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/t/taylor_swift/#share

Sorry That I Loved You - Anthony Neely

2010-12-06T23:44:00.000+08:00

Recently there's a situation makes me recalling this song by Anthony Neely...

"Sorry That I Loved You"

Verse 1
For all of the times that I tried for your smile
For making you think that I was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine

Verse 2
For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind
Chorus
And I’m so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I’m sorry that it came true but sorry doesn’t turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I held you tight
Verse 3
And I’m so sorry for…
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by
Verse 4
For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when I fled the scene
Sorry love, for wasting your time

Bridge:
An apology now after all of this time
Won’t make any difference tonight
But I’m hoping I’m sorry will open your mind
To love love love love in your life

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2010-11-17T19:21:00.006+08:00

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- reduces fine line

- leaving your skin firm and moist

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- Phone Number:

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如果你的朋友生肖是马的请好好珍惜...

2010-11-11T19:22:00.001+08:00

I got this from my friend, Vvc, through Facebook ^^

"属马的人性格很奇怪,有时候超爱说话,有时候可以一天不说话,高兴的时候,会拼命的说话,不高兴的时候,一句话也不说.
属马的人不爱记仇,但谁对他好谁对他不好,他还是记得很清楚的
属马的把真实的自己藏于半夜的寂静和午夜明朗的笑声中.
属马的最注重的就是安全感.希望被保护,却常常是一个人.
属马的不容易爱上一个人，但一旦爱上便很难自拔。一旦受伤，总是被伤的很深。只有几个贴心朋友

属马的是个很爱撒娇的孩子、总是很依赖别人
属马的喜欢海,喜欢顾影自怜.喜欢自己舔伤口.
属马的性格很古怪而又孤僻,他们会突然在大笑中沉默,感觉悲伤.
属马的心里想什么从来不说.别人也猜不到.
属马的嘴上说不在乎、心里却早已悲凉、心里的那把火早已熄灭 .

属马的选择了沉默、不在像以前那样挚热的去追求某样东西 .
属马的总是很爱回忆、回忆以前的点点滴滴、以前的大小事只是默默的想着.
属马的座的人天生敏锐，与生具备的第六感，对人的内心有超乎寻常的洞察力，但他会把这些东西放在心里，属马的人可以把你的眼神、内心看得很清楚，但却不会告诉你，他用旁观的态度判定虚伪 .
属马的人不懂甜言蜜语，不屑拍马屁 .
属马的人本能的排斥虚伪和做作的人 .

属马的人不会真的发火，就算生气，也很快忘记！
属马的人只对真正懂他的人，展示他的创造性，他的情绪他变得冷淡就证明他开始对你重新审视，当他越是沉默，就代表他越是生气 .
属马的人可能看起来很凶，其实内心是最柔软的 .
属马的人看起来很冷淡，但那只是保护自己的方法 .
属马的人很重视友情，但被伤害后绝对不再友善 .

属马的人很容易被感动，但感动中又保有理智 .
属马的人可能看起来很坚强，其实是最脆弱的 .
属马的人可能很爱哭，但他的哭并不代表认输 .
属马的人可能看起来很笨，其实大智若愚 .

属马的人可能做事很毛躁，但内心很细心 .
属马的人天生敏感和细腻，却会用心鉴定 .

属马的懦弱，受了伤之后，只知道躲在无人的地方独自哭泣 .

属马的虚伪，明明已经心痛到无法呼吸，还要在最爱的他面前假装坚强；不轻易让任何人走进他自己独自的世界

属马的笑容，无论开心或者悲伤，他都是一脸笑容，笑容，是他们伪装自己最好的武器，

属马的眼泪，从不轻易让人看见，他的泪，从来只有她知道，只是，谁又知道，在巨蟹的笑脸背后，埋藏的是深深的悲伤，笑的越开心，伤的越深 .

属马的退缩，属马的，永远不会轻易说爱或者喜欢，除非真的喜欢到了极点，否则，要他们表白几乎不可能，但是，一旦表白，他们就是不遗余力的付出，即使知道这样做换来的结果可能是深深的伤害…

属马的，永远只可能做同一件事两次，表白也一样，同一个人，只可能听到他向你最深的表白两次，两次之后，就是绝对的安静了…即使仍然深爱着，他也没有勇气再说第三遍我爱你…他的退缩，不能重复一件事第三次 .

属马的愚蠢，不懂的怎么挽回深爱的人的心，只能自己心中默默的祝福和祈祷。

受了伤的马，只会在角落独自忍受锥心的痛.

属马的：体贴第一名，爱吃第一名，爱家第一名，孝顺第一名，多愁善感第一名。

如果你爱上属马…请你疼爱生肖马。。。哈哈。。。"

我怎么了？

2010-11-09T20:06:00.005+08:00

又是一篇华文帖子，只有用华文才能诠释我心里的话……

我真得越来越不了解自己要的是什么生活，

- 一个人孤零零地享受单身生活，自己读书、自己看电影、自己盲目工作赚钱的铁女孩？

- 还是找个伴，过个比较正常的生活、过着一般女孩所想要过的二人世界，做个幸福的女孩？

习惯一个人了

偶尔会觉得很累

但是

我不断地工作来麻醉自己

我不让自己有一丝丝的空档

我不让自己有任何一点时间去想我的感情生活

我想尽办法拒绝任何人的追求

只因为……

我不希望再受到任何伤害

我不再有任何憧憬

我不再有任何奢望会找到好的

还是靠自己最好。

还记得……

20.10.2010

当时的你

所答应的一切

我的确是很开心

也因你的家人的反对

让我一直劝你听家人的话

一直劝你离开我

因为我不想要一段不受祝福的感情

这，你又能明白吗？

28.10.2010

结束，真的很快哦

现在的你，但愿会很好……

我想，我应该选择放弃爱情

因为我对它再也没有信心了

心死了……

It's TOTALLY RIDICULOUS!

2010-09-14T01:12:00.003+08:00

Here's the situation,

I was ordering some clothes from an online website which owned by one lady who admitted me as her "friends" but it ends up with ridiculous matters and at the same time she was humiliating me.

And now I'm gonna exposed every single message of our conversation cause I still haven't deleted yet. At the same time, to let you all guy who's interested of purchasing online, BEWARE!

The word in GREEN represents the Seller named CN, and the one with BLUE is myself.

24 August at 01:30, from FB inbox
"Please provide ur details as below payment must be made before we order ur shoes thanx
Name :
Address
Mobile
Email
Size
Quantity"

24 August at 07:45, from FB inbox

"okay....erm how's the payment option? I only can purchase it next month"

24 August at 17:05, from FB inbox

"Shoe:
A4043-56, Size: 38, 1pair
A16931 (Black), Size 38, 1 pair

Handbag:
PG1209 (Khaki), 1pc

For Chothes, I'm not sure whether I really can fit down or not, I'm a little bit chubby compared with those hot girls"

30 August at 14:34, from FB inbox

Here's the dress that I want:
Please let me know the price clearly so that I can straightly make payment.

(from Package F)
68033 Red
56807 Blue
59015
4212
5846 (with scarf) Blue
1160
2846 White
2814 White
1006 White

(Package D)
2008 Black

Shoe:
A1983-9, Size: 38, 1 pair

(Package B)
YS4261928 Dark Blue

(Package A)
59025 (include belt)
P515W060 Red, White and Black
YS4158838 Pink

DONE (All clothes are in 1 piece)

30 August at 14:40, from FB inbox

Please provide us
Name :
Address
Mobile
Email
Size
Quantity

30 August at 15:28, from FB inbox

Hi from Package F you selected 9 pieces... where by we selling 8 pcs for RM300 so the last piece we have the Quote you RM54 1 pc ...

thanx

30 August at 15:57, from FB inbox

Hi ashley
I just wanna inform there is an extra 1 pcs from Package F
and from package A you've shot 1 pcs

30 August at 20:48, from FB inbox

package F, pls cancel 1006
package A, add 56155 Black

Let me know the full detailed amount please..

One more thing, can I just pick up in Gurney Plaza?

Name: Ashley Ong Yeen Loo
mobile: 0174482835
Email: ash_yeenloo_blue26@hotmail.com

Size: 38 (For shoe), if clothes got size, please provide M

Quantity: All in 1 piece

30 August at 20:59, from FB inbox

Sorry all clothes are free size ! And we deliver or you can meet me directly To collect

31 August at 04:07, from FB inbox

okay... how much?

01 September at 01:51, from FB inbox

your package is grand total is RM405 before discount
After discount is RM 202.50

01 September at 19:01, from FB inbox

3 pairs of shoes, 1 bag and 15 dresses?!?!?!

01 September at 19:03, from FB inbox

Did u just add another 2 pair of shoes or what ? Nvm I'll check again

(it starts getting "funny")

01 September at 19:05, from FB inbox

the top first message included

Shoe:
A4043-56, Size: 38, 1pair
A16931 (Black), Size 38, 1 pair

Handbag:
PG1209 (Khaki), 1pc

01 September at 19:10, from FB inbox

Did u add new things o what

Sent via Facebook Mobile

01 September at 19:23

you see the first message in this inbox

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01 September to my phone inbox
C**** here from FB, I've given you the amount, when do you think you can make the payment?

01 September, my phone inbox
I got order 2 pair of shoes and 1 bag be4 I order clothes.. you get noticed?

01 September, my phone inbox
You've 3 shoes right

01 September, my phone inbox
And you've 13 set of clothes

01 September, my phone inbox
All different package

01 September, my phone inbox
I can't give you some price

01 September, my phone inbox
It's okay with it, I just wanna know the price

01 September, my phone inbox
I've tried my best to squeeze for you d

01 September, my phone inbox
Be4 discount price is RM761

01 September, my phone inbox
After discount is RM380

01 September, my phone inbox
Okay I'll bank in on 8th okay?

01 September, my phone inbox
Then I only can order on the 9th

01 September, my phone inbox
God Bless

01 September, my phone inbox
Okay, no probs..
Then when I'll receive it?

01 September, my phone inbox
Approximately waiting period is 10 working days

01 September, my phone inbox
Okay

01 September, my phone inbox
;)

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02 September at 13:19, from FB inbox

Hi

My company has required me to ask you if u can pay 50% deposit so we can order for you, first since there will be a waiting period ..

if not we've to wait for u to pay first before we can order for you

thankx
God bless

02 September at 21:45, from FB inbox

okay... will let you know once I've done bank in

02 September at 21:50, from FB inbox

Wat u mean

Sent via Facebook Mobile

02 September at 21:53, from FB inbox

I mean I'll let you know once I've done bank in...cause Im still waiting for my salary release....

03 September at 13:26, from FB inbox

....
mmmm Ok.... i just wanna inform so we cant key anything for you nor order anything 4 u

unless you pay deposit and confirmed you wan ur orders only we can process

So now we've to wait till the 8th

thanx

03 September at 17:37, from FB inbox

okay i understnd...no probs so total up is 380 right?

03 September at 18:10, from FB inbox

YEah... cos right now u r not confirmed we cant order anything ! Hope u understand...

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(problems begin)

05 September at 14:56, from FB inbox

I just wanna inform you, my company has key in ur order without me being informed because we key 1 shot everyone order and not only urs ... so your orders has to be paid by Tuesday (7th Sept) no matter what happens and before ur stocks arrive...

thanx

05 September at 14:57, from FB inbox

oh acc number pls..

05 September at 15:01, from FB inbox

if not i die for u 2 see by jumping from komtar hehehe

my acc is 44******** , c**** n* y** m**

thx

05 September at 15:16, from FB inbox

lol...wont be so serious... o know that amount..and my salary is gonna release soon

05 September at 15:20, from FB inbox

I've to pay ur stocks u know if money not in on Tuesday :( u say serious or not ler

05 September at 15:40, from FB inbox

=.= I'm just waiting for my salary dear~~~ =.= I also get shocked ma...

05 September at 16:16, from FB inbox

i am really really not in the mood liao... shit..
kena 747 by someone
and then my broadband modem missing
(what's 747?)

05 September at 16:38, from FB inbox

haiz...

05 September at 20:11, from FB inbox

C****..no worries.. I'll try my best to pay on tuesday no matter how okay?

05 September at 20:28, from FB inbox

Ok no problem, haha if not headline haa

Sent via Facebook Mobile

05 September at 20:28, from FB inbox

Ok no problem, haha if not headline haa

Sent via Facebook Mobile

05 September at 20:28, from FB inbox

Ok no problem, haha if not headline haa

Sent via Facebook Mobile

05 September at 20:28, from FB inbox

Ok no problem, haha if not headline haa

Sent via Facebook Mobile

05 September at 22:51, from FB inbox

lol...how many times you wanna send me?

PART 1 END...

Listen, this is just the beginning of the situation yet... the more "interesting" coming soon!

结...

2010-07-05T15:41:00.003+08:00

我坦诚你我之间有心结，一团永远都解不开的心结；

我坦诚我的形式作风是不被接受，但我不想改变它；

我坦诚我所做的事情只是一味的想复仇；

我坦诚我从头到尾都不想跟你们合作；

我坦诚我和你们有很大的代沟，因为我有“毛病”。

但我明白“毛病”并不能把责任推掉，所以我选择退出；

公开投票只是形式上的动作而已。

你们告诉我的道理，不是我不了解；

你们给与我的忠告，不是我不明白；

你们要求我的事情，不是我不能办；

是取决于我愿不愿意去实行它.

我很抱歉我带给你们麻烦，我会做出我该做的东西。

WHY?!

2010-07-05T01:22:00.002+08:00

To: Mr J.K.

I'm not thinking of you anymore...
I'm not recalling our memories anymore...

But again, why you're here?

What's the purpose that you dropped me a message into my FB inbox?
Meet ups for a small chat as what I've told you?

I strongly believe that you won't be here...

Back to your own girl, Miss S.L.

乱...

2010-07-03T04:54:00.002+08:00

连续性的经历了那么多事情，
连续性的发生了那么多事情，
连续性的遇到的那么多变化，

我成长了更多，
心理也同时复杂了许多。

很多事情还是保持低调比较好，
个人的EQ自然的也会比人家高。

哟！再看看事情演变得如何吧！

我暂时不想去想太多，
想多只是拿自己来烦恼而已。

自己看着办吧！
很快就结束了。

It's gettin' tougher and tougher...

2010-07-03T04:44:00.002+08:00

Two decades..

I learned a lot,
I experienced a lot,
I explored a lot,

My study's gonna end very soon, and it's time to change my life again.
Work? Nah... Should be a part-timer
Degree programme? Possible...

Everything's getting tougher and tougher, and I need to be stronger and stronger...
I have to face my life by my own, I'm not rely to anyone!

I can see a lot of things,
I can notice a lot of happenings,
I can read a lot of people's mind.

But I can't stand for hypocrites and psychos anymore...
They're annoying and disgusting.

To hypocrites,
"If you think that it's really good to back stab me, go ahead! Cause you're totally no courage to challenge in front of me!"

To psychos,
"If you think that you're not annoyed enough, continued it, until nobody wants to bother you anymore! This is what you called SUCCESS!" (pukes)

Supposed to...

2010-06-06T01:32:00.002+08:00

I supposed to erase our memories, almost clean...
I supposed no to think about you again, not anymore...
I supposed to have my own life without you...

But, why you're back?!

GONE

2010-05-30T01:29:00.001+08:00

You're out of my life!

My Kind of Guy - - V2

2010-05-17T00:20:00.002+08:00

Now, here's what you're supposed to do,
and please do not spoil the fun.
Copy and paste this into your notes,
delete my answers,
type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends here
in blogspot to answer this. Then see what happens.

if you a guy- post this as my kind of girl..
if your a girl- post it as my kind of boy..

1.Do you need him/her to be good looking?
Looks neat and always smells good~ not too handsome pls (cause I'm not that pretty)

2. Smart ?
Yes! But don't be too dumb. At least he understand what I talking about. Sometimes he acts dumb are really cute~

3. Preferred age?
Elder than me, maximum 5 years elder than me. I don't mind younger than me, as long as he's mature enough.,

4. Preferred height ?
Taller than me, even a little bit or same height with me I also don't mind

5. How about sense of humor?
Of course!

6. How about piercings?
Not piercing in weird part will do, But if he will looks cool, I like it!

7. Accepts you for who you are ?
Er...Is that a question?!

8. Pink hair?
Role Play~

9. Mushy or no?
Do not over the limit

10. Thin or fat?
Don't thinner than me will do.

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
Fair~

12. Long hair or short hair?
Neat and tidy~It's ok that he has long hair or short hair, as long as it suits him.

13. Plastic or metal?
What's that?

14. Smells good?
He always smells good

15. Smoker?
Erm... it's okay, but don't over addicted... AND DO NOT "poof" that stinky smoke in front of me, I'll get mad.

16. Drinker?
Don't get drunk (he needs to lift me back)

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
No no no no no~

18. Musically inclined?
Yes, he have to

19. Plays piano?
Erm... it's okay if he didn't

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
That was cool... (but, that's my ex)

21. Plays violin?
Er...please don't, It looks so gay~

22. Sings very good?
Yes! He can duet with me~

23. Vain?
He's full of confident to do everything that he likes

24. With glasses?
Sunglasses makes him so cool!!

25. With braces?
It's quite hard to kiss?!

26. Shy type?
Depends

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
I don't care

28. Active or passive?
Active lar~

29. Tight or bomb?
Bomb!

30. Singer or dance?
He's both of it

31. stunner?
Hope so

32. Hiphop?
As long as he likes it will do

33. Earrings?
Stop repeating!!!

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?
No No No No NO!!! WTF...

35. Dimples?
er... dunno ler~

36. Bookworm?
Depends on what he read

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
That will be great~

38. Playful?
Do not over it.

39. Flirt?
To me, but to others

40. Poem writer?
How about songwriter?

41. Serious?
Serious at the right time lar~

42. Campus crush?
That won't happen on me seriously.

43. Painter?
Nah~

44. Religious?
I can't imagine if he's holding a bible in front of me... @.@

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
Not really

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
No

47. Speaks 20 languages?
Wow...

48. Loyal or faithful?
Faithful

49. good kisser ?
YES HE IS!!

50. loves children ??
should be..

thinking of you...

2010-05-08T22:41:00.002+08:00

Mentos sweets,

My 20th birthday night at MOIS Penang,

"A" Racer,

Coffee,

"Holy Club" that you've created,

Messages ends up with "hugs",

Jokes...

It's all about you...

and I miss you...

from now on...

currently

2010-05-08T22:16:00.003+08:00

Everything came to me all at once...

Well, I was start working as a part time barrister at Coffee Bean G-Hotel since Labour Day. Unfortunately, I caught a hand cut 2 hours later because of the cappucino cup. What a deep cut! Not immediately, but until almost late night I went to LWE hospital for emergency treats, and it costs me nearly 80 bucks for cleaning wounds and gave me some antibiotic pills without any stinges. Sounds expensive right?

Then... the hell stuff is here right now. Standing under the hot hot sun and shooting!!! HAWT! HAWT! I was wondering that am I deserve to be involved in editing videos? Or is it someone's just digged a hole let trapped me up? I'm dead. All I can do is to WIN the battle! Guess I'm gonna spend a lot of time on it. Kinda regret that I'm working at the same time... ROFL!

And now, I'm officially over budget! I always need to lend money from someone and I have to pay back those debts a lil by lil but...

It's stressful!!

It's the time~

2010-04-30T01:55:00.002+08:00

It's the time to stop doing everything what I'm expert to--singing, dancing...

Maybe I should listen to my parents that not to join any competition anymore...

And I'm feelin' disappointed to myself too.

No matter how hard I try
No matter how good I do
I'm always do it myself, without or less people supporting me
I'm always face the battle alone

I should stop doing everything..

Does it worth? How do you think?

A "J" Joker

2010-04-28T18:45:00.002+08:00

Joker named "J"
cute one, it's great to be his sister!! muahahahaha~
great entertainer, what a waste if he's not a comedian~
he really did makes me laugh all the time~

sometimes, he's kinda flirty~
and sometimes, he's really look serious~
moreover, he's like a monkey~
and, he's really act like a great lover~the experienced one~

but now, kinda miss his jokes...

Imma bad girl, right?

2010-04-21T19:27:00.002+08:00

Maybe most of you might think that I'm a formal clubber...
Maybe most of you might think that I'm a freak bitch...
Maybe most of you might think that I'm just the ordinary one...
nothing special..

I really don't care about what's goin' on surrounding me,
I really don't care about what you're talkin' about me,
I really don't care about what you're thinkin' about me,
nothing special..

I just want to be myself...

If I'm able to choose right now,
I wish:

I won't go to the club to purchase happiness,
I won't go to dance at all,

I rather choose to sing out loud in front of the stage...
I rather choose to scream out loud in front of the sea...
I rather choose to stay gentle in front of my love ones...
nothing special..

But, it never exist...

I really want to be a good one..

at least, in front of my parents..

Imma bad girl... right?

party...

2010-04-17T16:09:00.002+08:00

Whee~ tonight! celebrating my 20th birthday party at MOIS Penang, see you guys there and grab me out!

whoa....

2010-04-17T00:00:00.003+08:00

sorry guys, I was slackin' for so long...

well, this is the last semester of my Diploma course, LOL! damn busy man...

btw, I have to finished it!

need supports~

--- short but it interprets everything in my mind ---

A Life for My Own...

2010-03-16T14:49:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna step back my own life soon,

very, very soon... It's waving hand to me...

I'll be back...

Giving up...

2010-02-23T17:07:00.002+08:00

Finally, I found out his recent situation...
Although I'm glad to hear that he's living great now, and with his beloved one after he left me,
but still it hurts me...

Actually I found out earlier when he was with me, he was keeping close with this girl...
He rather to chit-chat in MSN but he didn't want to talk with me.
I knew that I was totally failed in this relationship, eventhough I'm not the one who was doing wrong.

At least, he found his motivation of life, inspiration of life, all I knew that he's doing great now...
Be happy forever...

Once again, this statement proves that: I'm a failure of love and relationships...

It hurts me!
deeply...

Woohoo!

2010-02-22T17:45:00.002+08:00

Few weeks of slacking, finally I'm back.

First of all, wish all of my friends belated Happy Valentine's Day and Happy Chinese New Year!

Lots of stuff going through my lifes, all of them were undescripable! But, I'll try my best to list them out, no worries! Stay tuned.

It's the first day of my working day after taking 10 days of CNY'S holiday.
Unfortunately, something's happened to me now, it was so embarassing!! *blushing*
I wanna rush back to my hostel now!!!

*blush* *blush* *blush*

Guys, so how was your Chinese New Year and Valentine's Day celebration? Share you stories here! ^^

Hey Guys..

2010-02-10T14:56:00.002+08:00

Such a few days I haven't back to here. No mood, no idea, and no inspiration.
Lots of bad happenings occured on me since last week, I hate that!!
But some of them are good too, thanks for those who helped me alot while I'm in need.

Well, it's gonna celebrate Chinese New Year again,
and I'm 20 now.
Ain't a small girl again, gotta stay tougher and tougher in my future life!

I'm writing this while some happenings keep flashing in my mind.
ISK! What's going on with me?!?!
What am I thinking of?!
....

I'm speechless...

周末返槟之旅...(第二乐章）

2010-02-02T12:34:00.002+08:00

《第二乐章·乐》

23/01/10，11pm—抵达公司。
不单单只是回家那么简单而已，其实是顺着988《虎甲天下过好年》贺岁专辑北马区造势活动。
近12时，盈、荣、强和我出发咯！

睡觉的睡觉、聊天的聊天、信息的信息……
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3.30pm—抵达槟城。
直接前往第二场的造势活动—大山脚高峰城广场。
说真的啦~看它从风风光光到现在，变成有点Mydin的感觉，
还真得有点可笑的。
当场的uncle auntie很多，就坐在那边傻傻的看着，一点反应都没有。

到场的DJ有：Morna, Anson阿晨，盈盈，皓敏，和Danny温力铭。
可能大家都以为有免费的show吧？销量？更不用讲，
就创下了《宣传最快完毕的一站》。哈哈！

还有，我终于看到我最最最亲爱的妈妈，当然还有老妹。
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5pm左右至12am—下一站，至完毕……
哇~太早到了……空档之余，我、众DJ和工作人员一同到Stick Bar来个小休。
哈哈！又是一顿免费的！

正当快要开始我们的活动，台上的装饰灯泡竟然烧起来了!吓死当场的人们！
（不过988的人好像只有我看到整件事的经过，其他人都好像blur blur的……）

终于~轮到我们出场啦！
当个件事摄影师，感觉超爽的！
可以到处跑来跑去乱拍一通也没有人讲~
嘻嘻！

之后，大家一起吃了海鲜餐，有虾、有鱼、有蟹、有菜……
简直就是饱到……！
而且又是免费的！！！！
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！！！
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好啦~是时候回我的暖暖窝了。

------周末返槟之旅（第二乐章·乐），完。

周末返槟之旅...（第一乐章）

2010-01-27T12:05:00.004+08:00

《第一乐章·知》

20/1/2010
这几天真的过得很压力，
很多事情涌着来，
情绪相当的不稳定；
再加上我爸已经两个星期没寄家用给我了，
都快熬不过了；
已经逼疯我了……

终于，忍不住半夜爬起来，
躲在天台、关上灯，
哭了起来。
脑海拼命地浮现一个念头：“我想回家……”
打了很多通电话，终于打给了悠儿。
那小妮子又以为我为感情事而烦恼了，
我可没那么多拖可以拍啊！哈哈！
也可能她已经习惯了吧~谢谢你哦！

告知她我的一切，虽然她说无能为力，这我也了解，
但你已经让我的心情平复了许多；
泪水也渐渐收回了……

不久，我妈打来了……
自己强忍着泪，接了妈妈的电话。
听到妈妈的声音，感觉真的很激动！
很久没用听见妈妈那么温柔的对我说话了，
妈妈的嘘寒问暖，融化了我的心……
也让我安稳地睡了……

21/1/2010
妈，生日快乐。
这天她去合艾旅游了，
玩得开心点吧！

22/1/2010
打算自己要买车票回家，
但回不了，不够钱嘛~
正当要入眠前，收到彤彤的电话：

“筠茹，你想家吗？”
“当然想啊！”
“明天荣和强会出车前往槟城，你要跟吗？”
“要啊！！”
“好，那明天早上十一点公司见，拜拜！”

------周末返槟之旅（第一乐章·知），完。

周末返槟之旅...（前奏）

2010-01-25T15:30:00.007+08:00

23/1 & 24/1
这个周末，
是我在吉隆坡实习那么久以来度过最好的一个周末。
因为我终于可以回家啦！！

间中经历了许许多多的事情，
也度过了很充实的一个周末。
除了干正事之外，
还有机会与众多988DJ们一同进餐~
还有，还有！
还能回家与家人相聚！
超感动的~

先说那么多~
这只是“前奏”而已
之后还有几个“乐章”要跟大家分享的哦~
就让我得空时慢慢跟你们说吧！
相信会在不久之后，
因为，我真的很忙！！
哈哈！！

---------周末返槟之旅（前奏），完。

Rest in Peace...

2010-01-22T15:43:00.002+08:00

Lots of tragedies happened since I left Penang for my internship at KL city...

3 gunshot cases in my hometown areas...
Dragonboat tragedies of Penang CLHS's students and teacher...
and even at the same time, I lost few of my friends last year.

May you all rest in peace..

中文元素

2010-01-22T10:06:00.002+08:00

往日都以英语方式写出我的心情，
但心里还是觉得我想要表达出来的感觉不比华语来得透彻。

你们觉得我是否应该转用华文？
还是华英双语呢？

给些意见吧！

All of the sudden...

2010-01-19T21:13:00.002+08:00

I does't mean that you have to come back to me...
I just dislike ot walk along the beach alone... without you...
I can't feel your presence, your scent, your soul, your voice, your music...
Where are you now?
Did you realised that in deep, down part of my heart, I still need you a lot...

But, that's impossible;
impossible,
a dream of mine that won't be come true...

I learned a lot from you...
Do I need to thank you?
for loving me?
for cheating me?
But still! I'm still not able to put down all about us... Do you know? Or not?

All of the sudden... you're here... once again... in my mind...

I miss you...

Finally..

2010-01-11T17:12:00.007+08:00

Finally...

I'm get rid of my single eyelid's life now!!
And I tatoo-ed my eyebrow too ^^

I learned professional make up from Mama;
I learned how to let my skin become better from Mama;
I learned how to let myself become slimmer~

Thanks Mama for sponsoring so much for me, either financial or make up stuffs;
Thanks to Fitness First so that I have to opportunity to slim down;
Thank you everyone!!!

Thanks mama for letting me to be prettier and prettier

I love you Mama!
Muacks!!

here she is... ^^

I See You

2010-01-07T16:18:00.003+08:00

This is te official theme song from the movie "AVATAR", the scene stealer of the year 2009, directed by James Cameron. It was soooooooooooo FABULOUS!
Look through the lyrics, it's meaningful and finds out what's the real meaning of LOVE.

I SEE YOU....

"I See You"
performed by Leona Lewis
Original Soundtrack of the movie "AVATAR"

Walking through a dream
I see you
My light in darkness breathing hope of new life
Now I live through you and you through me

Enchanted
I pray in my heart that this dream never ends
I see me through your eyes
Living through life flying high

Your life shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
I live through your love

You teach me how to see
All that’s beautiful
My senses touch your world I never pictured

Now I give my hope to you
I surrender
I pray in my heart that this world never ends
I see me through your eyes
Living through life flying high

Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life
I offer my love, for you

When my heart was never open
(and my spirit never free)
To the world that you have shown me
But my eyes could not division
All the colors of love and of life ever more
Evermore
(I see me through your eyes)
I see me through your eyes
(Living through life flying high)
Flying high

Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
And live through your love
And live through your life
I see you
I see you

Photography...

2010-01-07T12:32:00.011+08:00

Firstly, I would like to disclaim that I'm NOT COPYING and at the same time I want to apology to my beloved firend, Hazelnut, those picx were so coincidently same pose with you, and I captured it couple months ago. It has been compared.. I'm sorry..

I was falling in love of photoshooting and photography stuffs, pretty not sure when was it? Have a look~

Camera: Sony Ericsson K800i

Self Portraits

Landscapes, F&B

By the way, I'm still learning in process...

Happy New Year 2010

2010-01-01T22:04:00.003+08:00

~HAPPY NEW YEAR~

What a great new year~ This is the first time I spent my New Year's Eve far, far away from my beloved land and family, at Sunway Pyramid, KL. Thanks to my beloved friend, Sophia and her bunce of friends accompanied me for this New Year's Eve countdown. Firstly we decided wanna go clubbing, but it was too packed and we cancelled it. Still have chances!

This is the first time I came to Sunway Pyramid, it was SO NICE! I took lots of pictures there.
Have a look~

Before that, I spent one and a half hour to Subang Jaya by KL monorail and KTM Commuters. It's cheap ^^. But I'd forgotten and I actually don't know that I need to take the ticket, I get
fined RM30.. But today, Sophia brought me to her working place and do nail arts, worth it larh! Haha!! Thanks again! Muacks!

Lots of great things and happenings since I came to KL. I'm exploring my life myself, it's like a new adventures. I found new joy, I found new motivation, I found new friends, I found new and great opportunities on my work, I found new love too ^^. I found my brand new life, although it's just for three months time, but everything worth larh! I miss my family, I'm start getting homesick now~awww....

A brand new Ashley's here! Whee!!!!

Goodbye 2009

2009-12-31T15:26:00.004+08:00

Goodbye 2009...

Many things happened this year...

College lifes...
Relationships...
Teen's life...

Lots of good's and bad's too...

Everything's gone...
Everything's over...

Goodbye 2009...

Start training~

2009-12-31T14:41:00.002+08:00

Whee....

My training begins!
Hmmm... Actually the studio, ain't too big and ain't too small, but the office is FREEZING!!
Currently I'm in charge in 988's Programming Department (I heard that I'm the first batch to join the team since they're not vacant new "intrants" for the past few years)~ I'm LUCKY!!

This is the forth day of my training period. Seriously nothing special, currently our supervisor is arranging some works for us to do, I think will be next year~ (after today is year 2010. LOL!)

Now, what I can do is, standby for orders! Ha ha!

It's gonna start my new life...

2009-12-26T23:56:00.003+08:00

Goodbye Penang... for three months... from now...

I arrived KL now safely. No worries, my friends! I'm gonna miss you all!
I'm gonna miss Penang foods, my Penang home, my family, my puppies, my coursemates, my club "kaki"s, my Penang life...

KL ain't familiar to me although that's the place I was so tempting to go to, but, I ain't feel excited when I'm here, now...

Sometimes I think that, am I making the right decisions? I chose to sacrifice my feelings towards you and concentrate on my studies and my future. And at the same time, I accepted the other one. Seriously, he's nice, really nice; and I like him a lot. But I knew that he's still bare in mind that he might just be "the spare one" for me. I wanna tell you that: You're occupied parts of my heart. I'm really glad that you're enjoying your new life now, and I promised that I'll never intrude your life, I love you, I just want you to be happy... That's all what I wish...

ISK! Why am I keep thinking of you?!

Babe, I know that how much you love me now, and I'm doing the same thing to you. I'm giving you and myself a chance. I don't care how far the distance is, how impossible it is, I won't give up, cause I know you're trying your very best to make me happy... Thank you, babe... I'll be right here waiting for you...

This is my first night in KL, it's weird, really weird... Although I've lots of friends staying here, but none of them are willing to call me out. I knew the reason: I'm here for my college industrial training, not for fun! Looks like I'm gonna live and explore it myself. What I'm doing now is all for my future, my brighter life. Is the way of life that I really want?

... My heart is not feeling right thesedays. Seems to have some bad feelings, of dunno what...

I don't dare to face my life for this upcoming three months... I'm not sure what I'm gonna be...
Well, that's my new life! A new life of mine without directions..

... And now, I'm signing off with an unstable minds and thoughts, I'm headache...

Finally...exam's OVER! But...

2009-12-17T15:47:00.003+08:00

Whee.... Finally, exam's over!!

But, unfortunately, I'm not feeling excited at all, I don't have the feeling that tell me my stress is released. Why? Maybe I'm over-exhausted and tentioned of it! And it's caused my monthly's visitor is late to me... Where're you? I'm waiting for you, please do come! I aint do wrong things for the past few weeks~ T.T

Well, it's time to go home, really... Actually I'm totally understand my mom's thoughts, just I'm still can't get used to listen her keep bla-bla-bla-ing in front of my ears~ hehe... Mom, actually I'm really miss you very much! you can't imagine how happy I was when you and sister find me last Sunday~ But I guess, I'll choose to keep it inside my heart...

Lastly... A simple and normal little-Penangite-girl is gonna leave her hometown and go to KL for industrial training ALONE. Seriously I've no idea what should I do and I can't imagine how will it be once I'm there... Hmm... Everything will be okay there right?

Farewell parties, gatherings from my different range of friends are dirtying my last week's schedule before I leave... I'm gonna miss you guys!

*smoochies*

So happy I could DIE!

2009-12-16T00:20:00.002+08:00

First, I wanna introduce this latest hitz you guys...
Think yourself, are you happy if you're able to die?

So Happy I Could Die
performed by Lady Gaga
Album: The Fame Monster

Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Ye-ha, Ye-ha
Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Aha-aha

Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Ye-ha, Ye-ha
Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Aha-aha

I love that lavender blonde
The way she moves
The way she walks
I touch myself can’t get enough
And in the silence of the night
Through all the tears
And all the lies
I touch myself and it’s alright

Just give in
Don’t give up baby
Open up your heart and your mind to me
Just know when
That glass is empty
That the world is gonna bend, yeah

Happy in the club with a bottle of red wine
Stars in our eyes ‘cuz we’re having a good time
Eh-eh, Eh-eh
So happy I could die

Be your best friend
Yeah I’ll love you forever
Up in the clouds
We’ll be higher than ever
Eh-eh, Eh-eh
So happy I could die
And it’s alright

Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Ye-ha, Ye-ha
Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Aha-aha

Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Ye-ha, Ye-ha
Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Aha-aha

I am as vain as I allow
I do my hair
I gloss my eyes
I touch myself all through the night
And when something fall out of place
I take my time
I put it back
I touch myself
Till I’m on track

Just give in
Don’t give up baby
Open up your heart and your mind to me

Just know when
That glass is empty
That the world is gonna bend, Yeah

Happy in the club with a bottle of red wine
Stars in our eyes ‘cuz we’re having a good time
Eh-eh, Eh-eh
So happy I could die

Be your best friend
Yeah I’ll love you forever
Up in the clouds
We’ll be higher than ever
Eh-eh, Eh-eh
So happy I could die
And it’s alright

So happy I could die
And it’s alright

So happy I could die
And it’s alright

Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Ye-ha, Ye-ha
Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Aha-aha

Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Ye-ha, Ye-ha
Eh-eh, Eh-eh; Aha-aha

Happy in the club with a bottle of red wine
Stars in our eyes ‘cuz we’re having a good time
Eh-eh, Eh-eh
So happy I could die

Be your best friend
Yeah I’ll love you forever
Up in the clouds
We’ll be higher than ever
Eh-eh, Eh-eh
So happy I could die
And it’s alright

Exam Y2S2

2009-12-10T23:54:00.002+08:00

I've never been so nervous before
I'm terrifying about this exam
Those subjects...
are really drivin' me CRAZY!

-Advanced TV Productions
-Film Aethestic & Critism
-Mass Media Law & Policy in Malaysia
-Iintroductions to International Politics

That's CRAZY! INSANE!

I'm seriously not feelin' well
Headache! Moody! Exhausted!
I still have to memorise so much~
Argh!!!!

Anyway, I'll try my best to overcome it~
I promise...
May God bless me!!

I wanna maintain my score!
I'm one of the top students before,
studied in a top secondary school before!
I wanna maintain my grades!

Keep on moving!
Good Luck Guys~

"Whatcha Say"

2009-12-10T23:50:00.001+08:00

Whatcha Say
performed by Jason Derulo

Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is

I was so wrong for so long
Only tryin' to please myself (myself)
Girl, I was caught up in her lust
When I don't really want no one else

So, no I know I should of treated you better
But me and you were meant to last forever
So let me in (let me in) give me another chance (another chance)
To really be your man

Cause when the roof cave in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So tell me girl

Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say

How, could I live with myself
Knowing that I let our love go (love go)
And ooh, when I do with one chance
I just gotta let you know

I know what I did wasn't clever
But me and you we're meant to be together
So let me in (let me in) give me another chance (another chance)
To really be your man

Cause when the roof cave in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So tell me girl

Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say

Girl, tell me whatcha said (said)
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I really need you in my life
Cuz things ain't right, girl
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I really need you in my life
Cuz things ain't right

Cause when the roof cave in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So baby watcha say!

Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say

"Automatic"

2009-12-10T23:33:00.001+08:00

Automatic
performed by Tokio Hotel

Automatic
Automatic

You're automatic,
And your heart's like an engine
I die with every beat
You're automatic,
And your voice is electric
Why do I still believe?

It's automatic
Every word in your letter
A lie that makes me bleed
It's automatic
When you say things will get better
But they never...

There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
Why do I keep loving you

It's automatic,
Counting cars on a crossroad
They come and go like you
It's automatic,
Watching faces I don't know
Erase the face of you

It's automatic
Systematic
So traumatic
You're automatic

There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
Why do I keep loving you

Automatic
Automatic
Automatic
Automatic

Each step you make
Each breath you take
Your heart. Your soul.
Remote-controlled
This life is so sick
You're automatic to me

(There's no real love in you)
(There's no real love in you)
There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
(There's no real love in you)
There's no real love in you
Why do I keep loving you?

Automatic
(There's no real)
Automatic
(Love in you)
Automatic
(Why do I)
Automatic
(Keep loving you?)
Automatic...

Anger!!!!!

2009-11-23T18:43:00.003+08:00

You really make me mad now!

Stupid act you asshole!!!
I'm not pretending that I care,
I am really care!
And I'm really wanna be a friend, a good one!
But what the hell you do to me?
Saying that I greyed you?!
You can't define how other judge you!
Cause the fact is,
THEY KNOW WHAT YOU'VE DONE!

Stupid you jackass!!
DELETING ME this kind of stupid act?!
Don't forget that you still owing me a lot...
and I still have the rights to get back from you,
whenever I want!!!
I did not cause I still care...

Listen here!! I'm not obsessing you at all!!
I'm throwing off everything of you!
Your couple mug!
Your umbrella!
Your white SONY pouch!
Your socks!
Your photos!
and Your jacket!!!!
Getting out of my life now!!!
YOU RUINED ME!

Listen!
I'm really enjoying my single life now!
I can do whatever I want!
And I'm never pretending that you're mine!
We're over! Really SO OVER!!
Once I knew that you have a girlfriend before me!
You are the one should shut up!
I don't believe that you never did anything behind of me!

Bad Romance

2009-11-23T18:41:00.002+08:00

Bad Romance
by Lady GaGa

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your ugly
I want your disease
I want your everything
As long as it’s free
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

I want your drama
The touch of your hand
I want your leather-studded kiss in the sand
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad, your bad romance

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh--oh-oooh!)
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your horror
I want your design
‘Cause you’re a criminal
As long as your mine
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love-uuhh)

I want your psycho
Your vertigo stick
Want you in my rear window
Baby you're sick
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

You know that I want you
('Cause I'm a freak bitch baby!)
And you know that I need you
I want it bad, your bad romance

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!)
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk passion! baby
Work it
I'm a freak bitch, baby

I want your love and
I want your revenge
I want your love
I don’t wanna be friends

Je veux ton amour
Et je veux ta revanche
Je veux ton amour
I don’t wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I don’t wanna be friends
(Caught in a bad romance)
I don’t wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)
Want your bad romance!

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I want your love and
All your lovers' revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)
Want your bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

You're such a lousy one!!!!

Hang outs...

2009-11-23T02:38:00.002+08:00

Last night, was my first ever time getting drunk. That's miracle! Or maybe I took some cough medicine which can makes me drowsy? I'm drunk, super drunk... for no specific reasons, just simply wanna release my stress and relax..
I can't control myself and continue drinking eventhough I knew I'll sure suffer from alchohol alergic and makes me itchy, but I still drink it. I kept on drinking and drinking once I think about my stuffs, no matter my studies, situations, relationships, neither friendships and family..
But, one thing I'm very sure is, I still knew what's going on from the beginning until the end of the party.
Thank you my dearest babe Maiko aka Hazelnut, she really did help me a lot, tried to balance up myself, thank you Ryan that accompany me for a few minutes chatting outside the pub, and those new friends I met and dance along together!! Damn nice!!! Really, thank you so much!! I love you guys!!!! Muacks!!!
Fuh!!! I'm ITCHY now!!! Argh!! My hands are hemp and really not able to strech it now. But still okay... ^^
I guess, after this hangouts, it's time for me to settle all my assignments!! aza aza fighting!!!

"Sweet Dreams"

2009-11-23T02:34:00.002+08:00

Sweet Dreams
by Beyonce Knowles

(Turn The Lights On)

Every night I rush to my bed
With hopes that maybe I’ll get a chance to see you
When i close my eyes
I’m going out of my head
Lost in a fairytale
Can you hold my hands and be my guide

Clouds filled with stars cover your skies
And I hope it rains
You’re the perfect lullaby
What kinda dream am is this?

You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you
Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
My guilty pleasure I ain't going no where
Baby long as you're here
I’ll be floating on air cause you're my
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you

I mention you when I say my prayers
I wrap you around around all of my thoughts
Boy you're my temporary high
I wish that when I wake up you’re there
To wrap your arms around me for real
And tell me you’ll stay by side

Clouds filled with stars cover your skies
And I hope it rains
You’re the perfect lullaby
What kinda dream is this

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you
Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
My guilty pleasure I ain't going no where,
Baby long as you're here
I’ll be floating on air cause you're my
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you

Tattoo your name across my heart
So it will remain
Not even death can make us part
What kind of dream is this?

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you
Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
My guilty pleasure I ain't going no where
Baby long as you're here
I’ll be floating on air cause you're my,
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you

A sweet dream? Or a Beautiful Nightmare? Define yourself....

complicated feelings

2009-11-20T00:12:00.002+08:00

PLEASE HELP ME!!!

I really really stress of my studies, group assignments, teamwork projects!
WHY?!
Why I must be the one to do the sacrificing stuff?!
I hate trades when I need help from other people..
They all are JERKS!!

Why should I deserve all of these?!
Why they never concern about my feelings?!
Why they never listen to me?!
I was thinking that am I doing something wrong?

I was keep controlling myself not to be releasing my stress of not
smashing stuffs,
scream at peoples..
I did it..
But,
I didn't even have a chance to speak out my feelings..
Who knows?
Who will know about it?!

there's NO ONE!!!

I really wish that there's someone can be my listener...
Listen to what I say without giving opinions...
Letting myself to say what I want...
But, I sure that no one will be,
cause I know the feelings of a listener, and I am!

I'm emotional, it's true
But those are not my true feelings...
That's my childishness

Who really knows me?
I guess, once again
NO ONE!!!

I am a girl that wearing a mask and keep hiding myself from my true feelings...

innocent? or being kept in the dark?

2009-11-17T22:22:00.003+08:00

What happened to me?!
What I've done?!
Lots of things happen to me now!!
I really don't know why that he's mad of me.
I don't understand that the statement said I was "polluting" his friends.
"Polluting" about what?!

What I've done?! I even don't know that whole truth.
I was being kept in the dark,
I know NOTHING!!
Not meant that I'm hiding away from the responsibility, the problem is,
I really don't know what's going on...

Did I messed up everything?
Is it my fault that knowing him?
Am I GUILTY?
or INNOCENT?
I should ask myself seriously...

How I wish that I can know everything,
cause I strongly feel that someone's hiding something in front of me...

Next, one of my friend, a really special friend,
met an accident and he lost his memories,
I can't believe it...
But everything he said I knew it and it's totally matched...
I can't believe it!
He told me it happened because of me...

BECAUSE OF ME AGAIN?!
What I've done again?!
I really don't know everything...
Is that my fault?

I'm headache!!
ARGHHHH!!!!
Somebody please help me....

pop star idol 2009

2009-11-17T22:07:00.002+08:00

I participated it..it's out of my expectations that I wanna go for it. The audition held in Redbox Gurney Plaza. And I'm into Penang top 10-that's unbelievable.

Last Saturday, I went down to Cheras Leisure Mall for the semi final and "battle" with another 26 finalists from KL, Johore, and Penang too. Early in the morning i rushed down along with my parents, really,really tired. Maybe that's another reason caused me not really able to perform well during the semi final?

But it's okay, I earned lots of experiences and I met lots of new friends! Thanks for the advices forn the judges...

Well, nothing much to say...signing off with a complicated and weird feelings

Leaving...

2009-11-04T13:56:00.002+08:00

He's leaving... to KL.. Although I knew that he wanted to keep away from someone, not me neither, but I'm so depressed of it.
I told him about my feelings once again cause I can't stand anymore, but once he told me that...I was..so, so, so, so... (undescripable thoughts..)
I might going down to KL for industrial training soon, really soon. I just hope that I still can hang out with him freely, furthermore maybe hook up with him? *lolx..don't ever think that much please*
I'll do my best..
How I wish that I could go back to the time that I never met him before...

Yes or No? Love or Hate? He's a JERK, a JERK that I miss and love the most!

Hint..

2009-10-28T02:46:00.002+08:00

I saw what he wrote on his blog, he needs someone to care, someone to love.
But, did he understand about my feelings? I wanted to care for him, I wanted to love him again. But will he accept it again?

I know what he wants, but are that the same things that we're thinking about? Or he's thinking another one? I don't know...

I know who am I... No matter what, I still wanna be the love-givers.. to you...

see the difference?

2009-10-28T01:28:00.001+08:00

Whoo hoo!! I have combined two photos of mine, which is before and after my eye-lids operations. Have a look!

Longing...

2009-10-21T01:59:00.002+08:00

I will not be longing for love anymore, cause there's one in my heart, is him.....

Although I'm single now...

It's hard to find his replacement... cause I'm tired to love again...

I'm tired..

Problems..

2009-10-18T17:17:00.002+08:00

Is it someone's age is the main reason for a particular person that he/she has the ability to solve problems?
Is it everyone has the bravery to solve the problems?
Is it everyone can get the real and correct way to solve the problems?
Will the problems be solved if he/she just stop and thinking, and thinking, and thinking, like Mr. Thinker?

I was trying to help, my very very best to help, the one that I loved the most in my current life.
Or maybe he might feel embarassing of facing me while he met problems?
Or maybe his dignity will be totally gone while asking me for help?
Right now we're just friends, a very,very different friend. Although we broked up, but I still wanna concern about you, I still wanna make sure that you'll just fine.

And I'm not the person that just only know how to hit people and blame everything..like her..
If lets say everything happens right now is because of me, put all the blame on me! I rather to be the one who suffer the pain and I won't let the person that close to me to get any hurt, neither my family, or the person that I love...

Why don't you just open your heart? Open your heart to let me help you? Some problems couldn't be solved by your own, please!!
Aren't you think that it'll hurt some other people who wants to help you when you're rejecting him/her, fully?
No matter how long does it takes, as long as things are solved, your life will be reset automatically...

Operation

2009-10-16T23:14:00.002+08:00

I went back home today and went for a double-layered eye-lids operation. My mom was keep forcing me but I refused to go for it although she's the one who pay for me..hehe

Anesthetics really makes me feel dizzy while the doctor injected on my eye-lids.. WHOOOFFF!! It's doesn't really that pain, but kinda weird feelings that I can't stand for it.

*Operation done in 2 hours*

Now, my eyes are bandaged but I'm still able to see lar~ but not for long period, cause sometimes my tears will suddenly dropped and feel tired. Feels like something was sticking on my eyes..

On the following days, NO chicken, NO seafood, NO fried and grilled stuffs, NO eggs....
How I'm gonna live for these few months?!

That's what I deserved of getting prettier...

Thinking of You

2009-10-10T14:57:00.003+08:00

Katy Perry - Thinking Of You

"Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best

You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters
I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes
I'd like to stay..."

I'm keep thinking of you... keep thinking of you...

Conflicts...

2009-10-08T18:30:00.003+08:00

Thesedays, or I can say that just not only for "thesedays", lots of conflicts happened to me. No matter with my family, my friends, my colleques, and him... These things almost make me explode!!!
I hate to make options, I hate to choose, cause everything has my own reason to go for it:
My family, which I never gone back for more than two weeks, some more that's my granny's birthday;
My working place, which I can earn more pocket money to survive alone outside;
My studies, which I have to run along with my friends for our group assignments;
and Him, which I need the most when I'm alone..
All of them are really, really important to me. So, I'm choosing- FAMILY

Some other people may not doing the same way like me. Well, it depends the situations that happends around us...
Think, and choose the option that will makes you no regrets!

I wish that no conflicts will happen to me anymore...

Changes of life...

2009-10-03T22:07:00.002+08:00

Been live differently for about a month, seriously I can't get used to become unreliable on someone all of the sudden, but I still have to do so.

I have to be more independent although I'm independent enough, I have to be stronger although I'm strong enough.

Many feelings I'd been through since last month. Being hurt, being lied, depressed, sadness, disappointment, desperate, pressure, undependable, tired, helpless, hopeless, loneliness... most of them are negative qualities...

Life's just like the waves in the ocean, sometimes it comes high tide, and sometimes it comes low tide, that's life. But, there still will be have the average of water levels between it, right? It just depends on when you're able to measure the accurate figure.

Last month, I lost everything. It's the most suffering life that I'd never been through. I need to stay strong to go through my life, and settle all the difficulties by myself, without my family, my friends, and by the one I love, which I'd lost it.

We are holding our fate, is it able to control it? I'm not sure...

But still... sometimes I really wanna fed up my life when I feel really, really helpless. I want my life back! I want my colourful life back!
It's so dull now...
"Ashley sweetie, true love is smiling at you" - that's what I get from Anita the online Psychic, facebook for today.

The Ugly Truth

2009-10-01T21:11:00.005+08:00

I've watched this twice, alone and with my friend, a really good friend.
There's one thing that I really believe on it, like what as they said:
"The truth is always UGLY"
I love this quote.
Finally I knew that what I did was keep on fantasizing about him that how good was he, how nice was he, and how gentle was he, and lastly I knew that the truth behind him, and it's the ugly one, the truth was reflecting another side of him that's different in front of me.
But I still can sense that the real side of him while he's facing me. Maybe all of these stuffs happened at the wrong time, but then I'll never regret...
"......I never regret being with you and telling her that you were better than her..."
This is the thing that I'll remembered it forever..
Although I know the truth, although it hurts, although it's not a good ending, but I'll tryna believe this: "If he's mine, he will come back; if he's not, game over then..."

Most of the infromation that telling us from this movie is talking about the real adults that involved in relationships, but sometimes it's quite useful for us that from a teen to an adult. Know more about yourself that what you want and know more about him that what he wants.

Watch this, I bet you like it!

Can? Or not?

2009-09-27T20:05:00.004+08:00

Sometimes lots of things and happenings in my life will appear this kind of quote:

"You can do it, but just you don't want to do;
You can forget it , but just you don't want to forget"

Right?
But lets say...
If I do it, some changes will happen. Good or Bad? I don't know, and I don't have the ability to decide whether it's good or bad.
If I don't want to do it, things will remains the same.

or....

If I forget about something or someone, my life will be reseted
If I don't want to, although it might be bad, at least I can have the memories on a particular happenings...

For me, some of it I'll choose to be not doing it or not forgetting it... cause the're all my precious moments and experiences to improve myself and help me to go thruogh my life...

Is it true?

So, I won't do anything and I won't forget everything..... about you.

Love?

2009-09-24T23:10:00.002+08:00

After facing the failure of my current relationship, one of my bosom friends was asking me this:

"Why are you loving him so much?! How good was he until he has the ability to screw you up?!"

"I don't know...I've no reason to love him."

"Ash, you're too good to him until he's not appreciating you!"

"But, it's okay..."

"It's okay?! Is that the reason to let him dumped you like this?!"

"I don't know... But I still can sense that he still love me..."

"Poor girl...."

A true love doesn't exist if he/she telling you a specific reason that makes him/her loves her/him. I agree with someone written in his blog that a true love comes unconditionally. Well, that's the first ever time happened to me.
I love him, I accept his habits, no matter good or bad;
I love him, I just wan't him to be happy, and sometimes he can rely on me;
I love him, I mad of him, I care of him, cause I wan't him to become better;
I love him, no reasons....
If other people asking me to specify it, I can't.

If lets say someone that you love is a good-looking one, a kind one, a rich one..etc, that's just an extra benefits for you and speacialities for you to love him/her deeper and deeper.

And if lets say again that the truth was get naked, someone will stop loving him/her anymore, cause she/he knows that their partner has no more values to let her/him continue loving them.

But, if he/she continue to do so, there's only two reasons for it:

1. He/she's stupid.
2. He/she's is really really LOVE her/him.

"I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him..."

Fear of?

2009-09-18T23:04:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I really cant understand that why someone will become so fear of something that it doesn't exist? Rejections, commitments, promises...

Maybe there's might be a nightmare happened to him/her in the past and caused him/her become so fear of it.

Sigh, like what my friends keep telling me:
I think I should put it down for several moments and concentrate on my studies first. But it doesn't mean that I'll let it go. Giving two of us some space and time to relax and think of it, it might be the best choice.

I really understand it. I'm now really concentrate on my studies, but my mind stucked me to put down my relationship's matter, how stubborn am I.. Whatever I do, wherever I go, my mind was keep recalling the memories between me and him. I was so depressed.
Last night, a friend of mine counselled me a lot about this issues, giving advises, comforting me. Although I totally, clearly understand all of these thoughts, but I still not really able to do so. I was get used to everything with him and suddenly gone. It really have to take lots of my time. I really thanked my friend that she prayed for me, I believe that God will help me. God will always listen to my problems and give me hopes and ways to solve my problems.

Well.. in conclusion, I'm fear of letting go of something that already carved in my heart.

What a shooting day....

2009-09-18T22:56:00.002+08:00

This is the first day for our assignments... Our broadcasting team have to do assignments, DRAMA!!! All girls team?! Seriously it's really hard for us to run for it without a guy! Holding big camera's, taking all the stuffs and equipments all around the place, running here and there, rushing here and there, everyone was doing their own job and responsibilities. I, as a Prodction Manager, well, I can say that, although I'd try to do my own part, but I still feel that there's something missing or even think that I never do my own part... lolx..

Somemore, a big, heavy rain came all of the sudden, all of our production crews and talents were nearly wet! Luckily, equipments saved.. and the shooting schedule for today is done!

So... GIRL POWER ROCKS!! Tomorrow still have to fight for it! I can see that everyone were exhausting now. 3 more days to go, be strong!! Hopefully all shooting process will run smoothly..

Thank you and I love you girls!!

"It's Over"

2009-09-17T18:20:00.001+08:00

"It's Over"
by Jesse McCartney

We've run out of words
We've run out of time
We've run out of reasons
Really, why are we together?
We both know it's over, baby
Bottom line
It's best we don't even talk at all

Don't call me even if I should cross your mind
Hard enough, I don't need to hear your voice on my messages
Let's just all it quits
Its probably better
So if I'm not returning your calls its cause

Cause I'm not coming back
I'm closing the door
I used to be tripping over missing you
But I'm not anymore
I got the picture phone
Baby, your picture's gone
I couldn't stand to see your smile
Every time you dial

Cause it's over
Girl, you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressing 7
Don't wanna hear your messages, messages
I'm tryin to erase you from my mind
Cause it's over
I swear it girl
It's over this time
So don't be callin leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you've been
Baby cause it's over

I still wake up every morning
Quarter to ten
I still eat my cereal
Right at the kitchen table
I can't even remember how long it's been
With no trouble staying occupied

They ask about you whenever I come around
I do what I can not to put my business in the streets
Last thing I need is another episode
Keep conversations short and sweet cause

Cause I'm not coming back
I'm closing the door
I used to be tripping over missing you
But I'm not anymore
I got the picture phone
Baby, your picture's gone
I couldn't stand to see your smile
Every time you dial

Cause it's over
Girl, you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressing 7
Don't wanna hear your messages, messages
I'm tryin to erase you from my mind
Cause baby it's over
I swear it girl
It's over this time
So don't be callin leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you've been
Baby cause it's over

You know that its over when the burning and yearning inside your heart
Ain't there anymore
And you know that you're through when she don't do to you and move you
Like the way she moved you before
And you wanna pull her close
But your heart has froze
You kiss her but her eyes don't close
Then she goes
Out of your heart forever
And it hurts you but you know that it's better

Girl it's over
Girl, you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressing 7
Don't wanna hear your messages, messages
I'm tryin to erase you from my mind
Cause it's over
I swear it girl
It's over this time
So don't be callin leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you've been
Baby cause it's over

Cause it's over
Girl, you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressing 7
Don't wanna hear your messages, messages
I'm tryin to erase you from my mind
Cause it's over
I swear it girl
It's over this time
So don't be callin leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you've been
Baby cause it's over

Is it over? Or not?
I don't wanna let it be...
Please don't do this to me...

Alone?!

2009-09-16T00:31:00.002+08:00

Yes! For someone who wants FREEDOM so desperately will do love it and it might be the best feeling for them although not everyone will want to be alone.
But can you see that being alone is not the best way to face the problems and you might feel helpless at all.
For me, sometimes I wanna be alone too, but not for long period, cause human needs accompanion, human needs family, human needs friends, human needs love, human needs everything, emotions, thinking, feelings......
Unless, you did something wrong to someone surrounding you, to the environment, to the entire world, so that you're choosing to be alone.
Well, I can say that, this is the most stupid way to punish yourself!

Giving time to calm yourself, to think might be the good way, but just don't do it for long period, it might change yourself into another person that won't be positive minded anymore.

I face it before, I met this before, I experienced it before, I totally understand how does it feels. Thank God for saving my soul and returned my ownself back into a normal person, along with more merchuat mind...

Prom...

2009-09-13T20:52:00.002+08:00

That's not my own prom, it's from the other colleges.
I was invited once again to sing along with the live band after I was rejected to host on that particular day.
But the way that one of the main commitee named "D" was making me soooooooo.... frustrated! From giving me an hour to sing, until 2 songs left, and then one song left... and lastly NOTHING! isk!!!
I was so suffering that I brought the whole big luggage full of prom dress, performing dress, high heels, cosmetics, hair-styling equipment and get back nothing.

Plus, one thing, there's no free dance session for the prom. Although more than half ofr the participants are refused to dance, but at least have a small time to let the others that wanted to..
Cause the DJ that they invited was playing club hitz was making me so tempted to dance.. =.=.. sob sob...

I promise myself I'll organise my own prom very well if I have the opportunity, but not for this year...

Confused...

2009-09-13T20:46:00.002+08:00

I am confused,
I am confused...
I really don't know what happen to me thesedays...
It's really hard for me to write it out...

I still have the feeling with him, and I don't know why I'm not rejecting...
Although our love game might temporary paused, but I did not have to priority to continue it.
And I still ave the strong feeling that I wanna be with him...
He's gonna leave very soon, once again...

I wanna drunk myself, but my body is not able for me to do so, so I'm itchy... argh!!!!!!
I wanna cry it out loud, but my tears can't drop anymore...isk!
I hate this kind of feelings, cause I really unconfirmed...

What should I do?

the story behind him...

2009-09-02T22:58:00.002+08:00

It might be not the truth that what you see, what you think, what you hear...
I believe this, forever...

I just realised that I am the one who's the third party between me, him and her... I totally can't accept and I knew everything through her... Obviously he hurts her and he hurts me.

...I'm really helpless now...

I'm blaming myself that I accidentally ruined her relationship, but seriously I don't know that he got her..for so long.. I can't forgive myself.

I love him a lot, a lot... But I can feel that she's more brokenhearted than me, I'm hurt too.. live in the life with full of lies... What to do? I can't put down everything..

I really can't...

Blamin' myself...

2009-08-30T00:48:00.002+08:00

He gave me a hint that he wanted me to forgive his desicion that hurts me, and he knew that I might hate him, but I'm not. I still keep at least a little hope to wait him come back to my side again.

What can I do? Just wait? I keep blaming myself that what I've done wrong to him or not. Even how many million times he said that I'm not the problem, but I thinked that maybe I'm not good enough or... If not, he won't leave me...

I can't express my feelings freely in my house when I'm with my family, even I'm not able to cry it out loud, the only thing I can do is waiting all of them entering to their own dreamland and I only can cry quietly, secretly.

What to do? Wait again? This is the only way... He refused to see me, I don't dare to text him again... But I really miss him! I really need him! I really love him! I can't forget him!

I have no more bravery and confidence, and I don't want to have another new relationship that might be happen in future with the other one, or maybe I've no more this kind of opportunity... My heart really can't afford it anymore. It's really hard for me to forget someone that I really love!

I'm keep blamin' myself...
Keep blamin' myself...
Keep blamin' myself...
I'm broken hearted,
I'm dropping tears everytime when I'm thinking of him
I want him back!!

Maybe I'm not the one who deserves to own a true love...

Crazier

2009-08-27T20:24:00.002+08:00

Performed by: Taylor Swift

I never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
Till open the door there's so much more
I never seen it before

I was tryin' to fly
But I couldn't find wings
But you came along and you changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground, you spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling
And I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier

I watched from a distance as you made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real

You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes and you made me believe

You lift my feet off the ground, you spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling
And I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier

Baby you showed me what living is for
I don't want to hide anymore..

You lift my feet off the ground, you spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling
And I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier
Crazier, crazier

Babe, you screwed me up since I met you.
You make me crazier, crazier and crazier...
It's really hard for me to put down our relationships...
I want you back...
I want you
I need you
I love you, always...

My kind of Guy

2009-08-26T21:26:00.002+08:00

Now, here's what you're supposed to do,
and please do not spoil the fun.
Copy and paste this into your notes,
delete my answers,
type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends here
in blogspot to answer this. Then see what happens.

if you a guy- post this as my kind of girl..
if your a girl- post it as my kind of boy..

1.Do you need him/her to be good looking?
Looks neat and always smells good~ not too handsome pls (cause I'm not that pretty)

2. Smart ?
Yes! But don't be too dumb. At least he understand what I talking about. Sometimes he acts dumb are really cute~

3. Preferred age?
Elder than me, maximum 5 years elder than me,

4. Preferred height ?
Taller than me, even a little bit I also don't mind

5. How about sense of humor?
Of course!

6. How about piercings?
Not piercing in weird part will do, But if he will looks cool, I like it!

7. Accepts you for who you are ?
Er...Is that a question?!

8. Pink hair?
Role Play~

9. Mushy or no?
Do not over the limit

10. Thin or fat?
Don't thinner than me will do.

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
Fair~

12. Long hair or short hair?
Neat and tidy~It's ok that he has long hair or short hair, as long as it suits him.

13. Plastic or metal?
What's that?

14. Smells good?
He always smells good

15. Smoker?
NO!!!!

16. Drinker?
He can't get drunk~

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
No no no no no~

18. Musically inclined?
Yes, he is

19. Plays piano?
He doesn't likes piano

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
Yes he is, guitar, electronis guitar, bass...some more he's teaching these instruments now..

21. Plays violin?
Er...please don't, It looks so gay~

22. Sings very good?
Yes! He can duet with me~

23. Vain?
He's full of confident to do everything that he likes

24. With glasses?
Sunglasses makes him so cool!!

25. With braces?
It's quite hard to kiss?!

26. Shy type?
Depends

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
I don't care

28. Active or passive?
Active lar~

29. Tight or bomb?
Bomb!

30. Singer or dance?
He's both of it

31. stunner?
Hope so

32. Hiphop?
As long as he likes it will do

33. Earrings?
Stop repeating!!!

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?
No No No No NO!!! WTF...

35. Dimples?
er... dunno ler~

36. Bookworm?
Depends on what he read

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
That will be great~

38. Playful?
Do not over it.

39. Flirt?
To me, but to others

40. Poem writer?
How about songwriter?

41. Serious?
Serious at the right time lar~

42. Campus crush?
I don't care

43. Painter?
Nah~

44. Religious?
He always involved in his church stuff like that lor

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
Not really

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
No

47. Speaks 20 languages?
Wow...

48. Loyal or faithful?
Both of it is the best one

49. good kisser ?
YES HE IS!!

50. loves children ??
should be..

Ending..

2009-08-26T15:32:00.003+08:00

Is it very hard to maintain the closeness of each other for those who involved in a distance relationship?
Do you think that you can totally trust someone that you love who stays very far away from you?
Is it a distance relationship won't be long-lasting?
Or is it a distance relationship shouldn't exist?
Are you willing to put your effort in this kind of relationship?

My love story ends today...
About the ending, I have no idea to conclude it.
But I still hope that there's another "comma" right next to the last word of my story,
Or the word "to be continued..."
Or a few blank pages for me to continue writing...until infinity pages.
I can't end up like this.
Because, it's unfair to me,
it's just like I lost my imagination to continue my story, my mind, my soul, everything of mine...
...and living like a dead people without emotions, feelings, and thoughts.
...all of a sudden.
...I lose him.
...without a proper reason.

I'm totally brokenhearted, I have no more confidence to step in this "love game" again.

Speechless...

2009-08-19T16:58:00.000+08:00

Seriously I have lots of things to say, lots of things that I wanna write on my blog... but... I can't do this, I'm so sorry. But, if you guys wanna know more about my updates, please click on yo my Facebook.

During thesedays that I'm not writing blog, I have a lot of different experiences happened in my life. But now, really quite lazy to type it out..(Am I lazy?) Hahaha...

School's opening very soon, few more working days to go, and it's also time fir me to headache again. Worries and pressure are keep spining sround my mind, my soul, my heart. I can't get rid of it!! I must be tough! Right? I really need supports...

Sunshine....

2009-08-11T00:08:00.002+08:00

Wow!! After having so many raining days, at last I can see the sunshine, that was so bright, and so nice... The rain washed off all the haze, rinse away all the H1N1 inflenza virus diseases, and brings healthy life to all the Earth citizens!!

B n' T = Boring and Tiring...

2009-08-09T13:12:00.002+08:00

The Boring Part

One day= 24 hours

Travelling= (-)4 hours

Sleeping= (-)8 hours

Working= (-)5 hours

FREE TIME= 7 HOURS!!

What I'm gonna spend this 7 hours alone without spending single cents?! Although I got my own pc, but still... you know lar~

The Tiring Part

Food Runner's job and responsibilities:

-Take Order

-Serve Dishes

-Clean Used Plates

-Refill Plain Water

-etc...

These are not tiring actually, but once there's A LOT of customers... then you'll die.. Sure work like "siao poh". Some more we have to do closing, clean all stuffs like that..

Actually I was thinking that I wanna work back in gsc, so I can spend my remaining free time and I'm quite enjoying that work too. Besides, beign a bartender is part of my interest too, so I might do for both of them. Hehe, I'll try to manage my time la.

Wee~wee...what a NEW day!

2009-08-06T22:20:00.003+08:00

It's thursday... The first day I work in Swensens, GP. 5 hours working time, less customers, less working time, lots of houseworks, lots of R&R to memorise and BORING! I thought that I have a chance to work as a bartender but it's really disappoint me. :(

Well, I'm going by bus along with Christine (luckily she works along with me, so that I won't be so feel bored)

I was wondering that: It's totally NOT enough that I just only work for 5 hours per day! That's sucks. As a part-timer, we should have a special request that we should work longer hours in that particular day.

"Ring!! Guest in! Welcome to Swensens!" from listening to other people greet me until I greet my customers, that's funny right? Haha... Gonne start another day tomorrow~

Okay, I strongly recommened to you guys to watch this: "G.I. Joe". It's superb!!!! I don't wanna tell you the story, but I believe that those who watch the animation will sure go for it. Log on to the website and look for the trailer..

No Theme-Part 1

2009-08-05T23:48:00.000+08:00

I think I should separate into few parts to say what had happen to me in these two days…

Sunday- 2 August 2009
Since June, every Sunday is the happiest day for the entire week, because this is the day that I’ll meet up with my sweetie, Jeffrey. But today, it’s a special day, the day that I moved into new hostel room!! Woohoo! I sleep alone in a room, 300 bucks per month, not bad right? Some more it’s located just right opposite to my college, very convenient. I arrange my stuffs one by one, but I still have to take more things from my house to there, especially my PILLOW!! Ha Ha! Roughly near to the evening, I’m done then I’ll depart to Gurney Plaza and wait for my babe to finish teaching his music class. We sneaked into my room together... and spent our fabulous night ^^ --- watching “Mall Cop” with my ladtop (I downloaded but haven’t watch yet. L) I really like that kind of feelings~ Smoochies babe!

BIG NOTICE!!

2009-08-04T14:28:00.004+08:00

From 1st August 2009 onwards, as what our local press released that the amount of the normal bus fare will be raised 40%. Rapid Penang is raising the bus fare too.
Here are the rough list of the bus fare:

RM1.00 to RM1.40
RM1.50 to RM2.00
RM2.00 to RM2.70
others I not sure about the rate...
Consession members will be charged half price of the normal rates.

Of course, the quality of the Rapid Penang are imrpoving day by day, new buses are launching and the facilities can be compared with express buses. Some of the Rapid Penang will provide FREE WIFI! "Surf while you're on board". That's cool!!

Enjoy your happy and luxurious trip in the bus to your destination!

"The Climb"

2009-07-31T23:49:00.004+08:00

My mind is still fresh that our beloved Miss Mi-chelle told us that life's like one of the song that I sing frequently "The Climb". It's really meaningful and I love the melody too... tryna find it out and listen..

"The Climb"
Artiste: Miley Cyrus
Album: Hannah Montana the Movie OST

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreamin' but
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it

Every step I'm taking
Every move I'm make feels
Lost with no directions
My faith is shaking'

But I, I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'n facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side
It's the climb

Yeah-yeah

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side
It's the climb

Yeah~

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby~

It's all about
All about the climb

Keep the faith
Keep your faith~

Whoa-oh-ah

"I Told You So"

2009-07-30T23:10:00.002+08:00

Today I'm gonna share a good song that I love it very much personally. Listen to the music and read the lyrics. Hope you guys will like it.

"I Told You So"
Artiste: Carrie Underwood
Album: Carnival Ride

Suppose I called you up tonight
And told you that I love you
And suppose I said I wanna come back home
And suppose I cried and said I think I finally learned my lesson
And I'm tired of spending all my time alone

If I told you that I realize you're all I ever wanted
And it's killing me to be so far away
Would you tell me that you love me too
And when we cry together
Would you simply laugh at me and say

I told you so
Oh, I told you so
I told you someday you'd come crawling back
and asking me to take you in

I told you so
But you had to go
Now I found somebody new and you will
never break my heart in two again

If I got down on my knees
and told you I was yours forever
Would you get down on yours too and take my hand
Would we get that old time feeling
Would we laugh and talk for hours
The way we did when our love first began

Would you tell me that you miss me too
And that you've been so lonely
And that you've waited for the day that I returned
And we live and love forever
And that I'm your one and only
Would you say the tables finally turn

Would you say
I told you so
Oh, I told you so
I told you someday you'd come crawling back
and asking me to take you in

I told you so
But you had to go
Now I found somebody new and you
will never break my heart in two again

Now I found somebody new and you
will never break my heart in two again

Exam...

2009-07-28T00:21:00.003+08:00

Wow, this is the first day of the exam. Well, it's sucks!
Communication Theories, although I'd study quite a lot, but once I read the question then I keep bullshiting... muahahahaha...
Advanced Chinese, I didn't expect anything, cause I'm not study at all. I'm sucks in Chinese, so, I hope that the question will not be very difficult?
Advanced News Reporting and Writing, lol... 1 word-- DEAD!
Basic Radio & TV Production, that's the least effort I did, done preparing notes, and keep memorising the notes and try to understand what does it talk about..

Wish that I won't drop my CGPA...